I didn't run this morning.
I ran yesterday evening (Monday). I set my alarm to get up and run this morning, but I wasn't feeling it and knew it wasn't a "must-run" day. So I slept a little longer and had a not so rushed morning getting out of the house with the kids.
But I was in a funk all day. Just feeling discouraged about a variety of things, dwelling on things I'm frustrated with, feeling negative.
The weight of life is heavy. I am always stretched thin. I rarely accomplish all that I'd like to. The home-making items end up on the bottom of the list and don't usually get done. This is often what nags me the most. I have such visions of the home I could create, the meals I would serve, the quality time with my children, if I had the time and energy.
Yet I wonder, how much of my negative feelings today were related to not running? Was my body missing those endorphins?
I talk often about how running is my sanity, and it really is. But do I need my runs that much? Are they that vital to balanced emotions?
This thought scares me a bit.
Because running every day isn't realistic and wouldn't be good for my body.
I know that running isn't the only key to sanity and feeling in control of my life. I guess I need to make a point to utilize other mechanisms on the days I don't run.
You better believe I'll be running Wednesday morning. After a day like today (which really wasn't bad in reality, just in my head), I am amped to put in some speedy miles.
I wish it was already the morning.