Saturday, August 13, 2011

facing it

I have great intentions.

But life usually gets in the way.

I usually beat myself up in my mind for failing to follow through.  But in fact, I have to recognize that I am a working mom to three young kids.  I love reading blogs written by moms who run.  I am inspired, encouraged and motivated by reading about their training, races and everyday life.

Some are stay at home moms, some only have 1 or 2 children, some have incredible willpower to get up at the crack of dawn most every morning.  I am none of those.

I have to face the realities of my life and remind myself that when it comes to running and racing, I am only ever competitive with myself.  I have a pretty good idea of what I'm capable of, and I love pushing myself even a bit beyond that.

Suffice it to say, we had a good couple week run with Insanity.  Then Bean injured his ankle.  And I got a cold which turned into a sinus infection.  We've struggled with getting back into the groove.  The kids are an issue too.  We don't have a place inside we can workout after they are in bed.  And working out, even outside, when they are awake is challenging.

I did an Insanity workout this morning when I was home alone for a few hours.  If Bean has a few hours home alone, he'll clean or do some sort of work or chore.

I liked working out together, but maybe it's not a reality right now.  And I have to face it.

I took vacation this coming week from work.  I'm looking forward to hanging out with the kids and doing some fun stuff together.  I also hope to get some Insanity workouts in and a few runs.  It's time to build up my base for marathon training.

In a perfect world, we'd have finished the two months of Insanity.  But I don't live in that world, although sometimes my mind likes to pretend things like that are possible.

Last week as I was lamenting, once again, to my sister about the pesky 5-10lbs I'm always trying to lose, she reminded me that with the stress and craziness of life, fighting those 5-10lbs is probably keeping me from gaining 20.  (we are stress eaters!)

So I will stick with that perspective with exercise too.  Attempting to exercise 5-6 days a week most likely ensures that I'll workout at least 3 of those days.  Which I can live with.

In the meantime, I'll probably keep setting lofty goals and not quite hitting them.  But hey, if you shoot for the moon, at least you'll land among the stars--right?  (so cheesy, I know.)

I think I got in two Insanity workouts this week and I hope to run tomorrow too.